If James Had Lived, (Oh how I wish)

[Kris Lupin]

This is the place a man, if you could call him a man, thought. He walked up to the house, got out what a muggle would see as a stick…

Inside the house a baby is crying as a dark haired man with glasses shouted, “He’s here! Lily, take Harry and run! I’ll try and hold him off!” The woman, Lily, opened her mouth to protest, “Lily! Go!” She turned and ran upstairs. The man turned to the door, wand out. The door blasted open and the other man entered, he smirked at the young man. “You’re not worth it.” He waved his wand then the young man fell to the floor, knocked out.

He walked up the stairs then blasted the nursery door open, Lily begged him not to kill Harry but the man ignored her and killed her then turned to Harry. The one year old baby looked up at him and the man tried to kill him but the spell backfired. A young woman with light brown hair ran to the house, “James! Lily!” She ran into the house and gasped at what she saw. She ran to the young man’s side then waved her wand. “Urr…” He said as he came to.

“James…” The young woman whispered helping him sit up. “Lily…Harry…” Was all James said. The young woman nodded then stood up and ran up the stairs, she ran over to Lily, “James!” She yelled. James ran up the stairs then saw his wife lying on the floor, dead. The young woman picked Harry up, there were tears in her eyes.

The next day they were all at Lily’s funeral. The young woman sat beside her brother, he had his arm around her. “If only I had been there sooner.” She whispered. “And what would you have done, Is?” Her brother asked softly. She couldn’t stand staying there she stood up, walked to James, “I’m sorry for your loss, James. If there’s anything you need, don’t hesitate to send an owl.” She turned to leave but someone grabbed her upper arm. She looked back and saw her brother, “Remus, I can’t stay here…she was my best friend…you and your friends never looked at me twice…I was never part of your group.”

Remus took her out of the room, “Our group? There was no group, Isabelle.” Isabelle smirked, “Yes there was, Remus. You guys never hung out with anyone but each other. I remember my first time on the train, you were suppose to let me sit with you but you made me find my own seat. I used to look up to you, at least I did until you ditched me on the train.” She jerked her arm out of his grasp then left, leaving him speechless.

James walked up to Remus, “What’s up with her?” Remus smiled slightly, “Her feelings for you.” James looked at Remus like he was mad, “Her feelings for me? You got to be joking. She’s what eighteen? I’m twenty-one.” Remus shook his head then walked over to Mr. Potter and began talking to him. James stood there still thinking about what Remus had said.

The next year James was trying to make Harry stop crying but he was doing a poor job of it. “What is it, Harry?” James asked in a begging tone. “Isa!” Harry screamed flailing his arms around. “Isa?” James asked confused how can he remember her? It’s been almost a year since she’s been around…in fact it was at Lily’s funeral since I’ve seen her last… “Isa!! I want Isa!” Harry screamed as he started to hit James. Something she had said came back to him, ’if there’s anything you need, don’t hesitate to send an owl.’ Harry continued to scream for Isa while he kept hitting his father. “Alright, Harry. I’ll send an owl to Uncle Remus and see if she’s there.” Harry smiled and James’ eyes shifted onto the scar. I wish Dumbledore would have let me heal that.

James sat Harry down in the playpen then sat down at the desk. He picked up a quill then dipped it in ink and began to write.

Remus,

I know this will sound strange but Harry is wanting Isabelle. I haven’t seen her since Lily’s funeral. I don’t see how he can remember her, I know she doesn’t stay at your house or with your parents. But to tell you the truth I’ve been having dreams about what you had said. These dreams have us, me and her that is, together do you think that my heart is trying to tell me something?

No, I can’t say that. James thought as he crumpled up the letter and threw it in the fire. He sighed then thought a better way to ask Remus about her. He dipped his quill then began to write once again.

Remus

Do you think that you could ask your sister to come and see Harry? He’s asking for her, I don’t see how he remembers her but he keeps saying ‘Isa’.

James stopped writing to watch Harry play with his stuffed fox and stag. “Isa and Daddy.” He made the two kiss, James got down on the floor outside the playpen. “Which one’s Isa, Harry?” Harry held up the fox, when did he get that? Oh yeah his second birthday. It had a black dog, that stands for Sirius, a wolf, that I assume stands for Remus…the fox…who could the fox stand for?

James shook his head then stood up and walked over to the desk. He sat back down and started back on his letter.

Did Is learn animagi? Because Harry is playing with his stuffed animals…you know the ones that represent our animal forms. The black dog is Sirius, the stag is me, the wolf I believe is you…but the fox? Who could that be?

James

James sealed the letter then called for his owl, when the owl landed on his desk he tied the letter to his leg then he flew off. James looked down at Harry and smiled as he saw that he had fell asleep. James stood up, stretched then walked to the couch, as soon as he sat down an owl dropped a letter on his lap. He knew it was too soon for Remus to have replied. He looked at the letter and read his name James Potter who could this be from? James thought as he just stared at his name.

Just open it! It might be from her. James opened the letter and read aloud;

Hey, James, I know it’s been a while and my handwriting has changed but I wanted to apologize for leaving so soon at Lily’s funeral. I really wanted to stay for her but I just couldn’t stand seeing you hurt so much. I hope Harry liked the stuffed animals I sent him, I hope he and you are doing ok. I am thinking of getting a job, I’m not sure what I should try for. If you hear from Remus tell him I miss him and my parents. I moved out I got tired of getting yelled at and everything, I tried living with Remus but that didn’t work out. I am staying with Sirius now, I kept his ass outta Azkaban he wanted to go after Peter for betraying you and Lily. I told him it wasn’t worth it, and that I needed him out of prison. He and I are together now, I waited on you to get a hold of me, say you wanted me not just because Harry needed a mother but because you wanted me for me.

I know now that I was foolish to wait on someone that would never want me the same way I wanted him. I loved you James, I wanted to be with you. I was watching you when you was watching Lily, I was watching you when you wasn’t watching her. She knew I loved you and yet she dated you like I wasn’t even there. That’s why I couldn’t go to the wedding, I wouldn’t’ve been able to stand watching you marry another girl. Well…maybe I’ll see ya around…

Isabelle

James was shocked at what the letter said he sat there rereading and rereading the letter until he thought he could read it with his eyes closed. She’s with Sirius? How could he not tell me? He stared at the words He and I are together now. James stood up but was knocked down by his owl, he fell back on the couch then took the letter. Then opened it and read what it said;

James,

Hey, I just seen her, she came to use my owl because hers is feeling ill. I told her what your letter said, she said she would but she still has feelings for you and she doesn’t want to mess this relationship up like she did the last one. As for the fox, that’s her she sent her letter before I got yours. You may want to think about getting a new owl, he used to be fast, but not now, well anyway she says she will wait for you to respond to her letter before she leaves for Sirius’.

Remus

James smiled then stood up again and as he passed Harry he heard him say, “Isa…” James nodded then sat at his desk, he picked up his quill and wrote;

Is, stay there I want you to see Harry again…no…I want to see you, Is I…I haven’t stopped thinking about you since I last saw you. I…I…you know how thick headed I am. I was too stupid to realize that I love you…I do, Bell, I love you! I want you for you. Just stay there, Bell, I’m coming over there.

Love,
James

James called his owl again gave him the letter then got his jacket on. He got Harry’s jacket, woke Harry up then put the jacket on him. He picked him up and said, “We’re going to see Isa.” Harry squealed with joy something James himself wanted to do. James walked to the fireplace got some floo powder then threw it into the flames. He said where they needed to go then stepped in the flames.

[Ellie Martino]

You told me about this one, didn't you? Well, I've read it.. I love it! It's really good so far... Can't wait til you post more!! PAMS!!