Name: BlackTide
Gender: Male
Age: 6
Species: Gray wolf
Pack you wish to join: None.
Appearance: Tide is of a rather pathetic build for his age and gender; he is very skinny and his ribs are showing through his fur. You would say that he is in very bad shape. His ears have small tears in them, a large scar on his back, scratched up and bloody paws, blood-stained claws..Yeah, he wasn't exactly the best to look at as of this time. His paws are unusually large for the average wolf, making it easy for him to trip on them at any given time when he even tried to walk. His tail is lengthy and furry, black splotches line his dusty gray fur. His once dull gray eyes turned to a heavenly blue color as time progressed..If you stared in them long enough you could tell he had a pretty hard life, for sorrow shows within them..But then there's strength, courage, and many other things to keep him going strong.
Personality: His once carefree, klutzy attitude is now nothing but a memory now that Tide has locked himself up. Now reserved and not the friendliest wolf in the world, he has a tendency to get angry at even the slightest things. The sad part is that he can't even control those feelings of his, they just come and go like the weather, unpredictable. Perhaps if you were able to get close to him, open him up, then he would be more humorous and just an awesome wolf to be around..But for now he'll be quiet, he'll stay reserved..He may stay like that forever, all depends on the time that goes by and the different wolves that he meets. With the right amount of kindness and affection Tide'll bloom like a flower and communicate with any creature with a care in the world.
History: Born an only child to the father, Merzan, and mother, Izaiya, Tide led a pretty normal life up until he turned about nine or so months of age. Merzan ditched him and his mother, leaving them to fend for themselves and keep themselves going. Izaiya wasn't a very strong wolf, but she did have beauty. A lovely gray wolf with bright green eyes that shined like emeralds, her fur soft and gentle, her face warm and kind..A wolf that Tide was proud to call his mother. As time went on Tide became stronger and was able to protect his mother from harm and anything else that came their way, they were inseperable, you'd never see the two apart. They became the best of friends and would tell eachother anything and everything..The good things, the bad things, and everything in between. Whatever was on their minds, they would share it to one another. But one day Tide had left to go hunt for food alone, his trek was long and hard because where they lived food was scarce and a great famine was coming their way. But what with his stubborn self he only laughed and remarked, "Don't worry, Ma..I'll find something. I'll be back." And then he was gone, disappearing for about a week due to a strong blizzard that caused his vision to blur and bring him to the ground from the rigid temperature.
Upon returning he checked his mother's den. Nothing. He then checked everywhere else he could possibly think of. Nothing. Where could she have gone? He asked himself mentally, collapsing to the ground, his muzzle covered in snow, his eyes closing and small tears forming under his eyes. "She wouldn't leave me, would she? What...what if she died? What if she starved? What if she got attacked by a rival pack? What if...?" Tide broke himself off, shaking his head and stomping a paw against the ground. "No! She isn't gone, she can't be. I'm going to look for her again!" He announced confidently to the cold, solitary terrain as he pushed himself to his feet and began searching once again. Only hours later did he trip over something in the snow. When he went to check to see what it was he saw two wolf ears poking up from the snow. Quickly, almost as fast a lightning, he darted for the buried wolf and began digging, uncovering the body in almost five minutes flat. Tide studied the wolf carefully, teats falling from his eyes once again as he nuzzled the neck of the dead wolf that was his mother, Izaiya.
"Mother..." He cried mournfully, holwing into the chilly air, the note lingering and cutting through the atmosphere like warm butter. It was a depressing, melodiac howl that could send a chill down any wolf's spine.
"I guess this means I'm on my own again.." He said quietly, his voice shaky and somber. Looking the the sky he nodded his head lightly, tears filling his eyes yet again.
"I'll join you soon...Mother..But first I'm going to make you proud." was his reply as he ran and kept on running, stumbling upon a foreign land that he'd never been to before. There the first wolf he had ever met other than Izaiya was Blitz, he was just a newbie then..He wasn't an alpha or anything. Soon they became good friends and talked to eachother often, in many ways, the were almost like brothers. Soon after he came across Frost, then Dreamer..His affection grew for both of them, causing his emotions to collide and clash together.
The main question was who he really loved...He remembered confessing his love to one of them once, but then remembered that if he wanted to control the element of darkness he couldn't be with a mortal wolf, he had to be with an immortal. Naturally, this shattered him, causing him to get very depressed. In the end he chose to be an immortal and forever give up loving them both. To love neither of them was heartbreaking for him, he couldn't take it. It was only then that he fled from Alaskan Wilderness Wolves and lost his immortality, he had to live like any other normal wolf, but this time on his own without anyone by his side. He figured it was what he deserved...He believed he deserved something much much worse for breaking both of their hearts.
Now that another year has gone by Tide has built up enough courage to come back to AWW, set himself straight...Maybe find the strength to open himself up and love again, maybe he could also interact with the others and create many friends..Then again, maybe he was just dreaming too hard...Would anyone accept him? Would anyone want him back? Only the future knows what will unfold..Taking a deep breath he puts on his bravest face and takes a step into the land he once lived, breathed, and loved with all his heart..His heart was beating like a jackhammer and felt like it was going to explode, yet he tredded on. He was home again...Though it may not seem like home to him, atleast not until he feels as though he has been accepted once again.