Mitchell's Journal

[yotanslemons]

I just got here, and already I feel that there is much I need to learn. A single meeting with a girl and my shields were ripped away like paper. The girl seems to be more frail than most, but I can't help wonder what kind of hidden strengths she might have. Without a doubt, she is very gifted. I've never had someone so easily rip away my defenses before, at least, not since I learned how to put them up, but she had no difficulties drawing me into her world and leaving my known reality behind.

That's all I can describe it as, being drawn into the reality of her mind. And what a bleak reality it is. There is obvious beauty, but there is also dread. I want to help her, if I can. A part of me wants to protect her. I freely admit that such a frail flower needs to be protected and I but hope I can be one of those who offers that protection.

I also met a few others. If I recall correctly, two arrived at the same time as I did. The other seems to be more comfortable in his surroundings, so I assume he's been here long enough to get settled. The last, poor girl, was scared and angry. I can't say I blame her, being startled into the water the way she was. A part of me thinks that strangers scare her some, but I can't fathom why that would be.

One of the boys practically seethed with confusion and anger at that confusion. I hope that he'll figure out on his own what's going on. I doubt he wants me to help him. He was uncomfortable when he discovered that I'm empathic, so I don't think he'll be comfortable letting me help him sort out his feelings.

The other boy was angry. I am not sure why, in the confusion of so many other feelings of anger swirling around the place. From what little I heard, he was the cause of the little kitty girl's startlement. He seems to have honor though, so I do not think he's the bad sort. He just happened to startle them all.

The last was a girl. Very pretty and easily the calmest of them. I think she will be one of those who can help others realize their emotions, even though I don't sense any mental gift from her. The floating on a broomstick was an interesting trick though. She's obviously gifted with something, though I don't know what exactly.

That, journal, is my first day. I can't help wonder what other adventures lie in store. The old man was right, being a peacekeeper will always keep a man occupied. I have yet to see if this will cause me nightmares or not.

[yotanslemons]

Well, I must say this place is certainly interesting....classes so far seem fairly simple, though I don't understand much of the Introduction to Computers stuff...it's all rather complicated. The rest of my classes don't seem as though they will be extremely hard.

I met Iris again...and I'm more determined now to help her than before. She needs a friend and she needs someone who isn't trying to keep her chained up. It's hardly surprising that she doesn't like to be restrained. Even people who have not been tied to a stake and left to burn like the old fashioned witch hunts don't like it, I can only imagine how troubling it is for her.

The memories she showed me are far worse than I had imagined......I can see now why she has so much dread. I hope that I can help her through the past pain so that she can learn to have a better and happier future. She deserves some peace after the life she's led.

I'm not sure I like her doctor either....the man is obviously overworked, and clearly concerned for the safety of others....but he uses such extreme methods to try controling his patients. Iris doesn't need a leash....she needs to be watched by someone that won't fall asleep on the job or won't be distracted. It's no wonder she's so unhappy, considering that they leash her when it's the staff letting her wander off unsupervised.

I'm not entirely sure what I feel for her....the emotions are still unclear to me....but I know I want to protect her and help her. And I suppose I should start by trying to coax her into eating more...she's obviously not eating what she needs...maybe if I cook her something warm or make her hot chocolate she'll eat it to warm herself up? It's worth a try at least....now I just need to learn how to cook something that would appeal to a woman who eats so little....

On another note, I have not been able to make any other friends yet...I have been busy trying to settle in and learn the place. So far I know where most of the main rooms are....but I still have to find the grocery store. I know it's around this ship somewhere.

[yotanslemons]

It's been awhile since I've written anything, and so much has happened. I've made a few more friends and I feel lucky to have made them. Unfortunately, Iris has had a bad turn of events and now seems to be blaming herself for the deaths that someone else caused. The doctor and nurses, as well as the other patients, have been killed in a very bloody and brutal way. Iris was drugged and threw herself into deliriums that were terrifying anyone that came in contact with her.

She's upset that Hamlet wouldn't kill her, and I confess, if he had tried to do so, I would have stopped him by any means I could. She sees his refusal to kill her as a betrayal, and my making her go through the door to get out of the delirium as one as well. She says I burned her, though I don't understand how that could be.

Now I'm more confused than ever about what to do with her....but Horatio seems to be a balm that I could never be. He's far more innocent than I, and she tries to avoid hurting him as much as she is able. And he seems to calm her when I cannot. For that I am very grateful.

Horatio is another friend, who has a ghost companion named Hamlet. I admit, I'm not sure why he puts up with me. The only tie we really seem to have is Iris, and yet I'm not sure I like that. I want to be a friend for him regardless of if Iris is there or not, but I'm not sure how to go about doing so. Iris seems to inevitably come up between us, even when I try hard to avoid talking about her. I suppose developing the friendship between us is something to work on.

The last person I'll talk about is Professor Exodus. I think I might be getting the two of us in trouble, and I admit, all the first moves have been mine to make. He's a teacher, so of course he wouldn't show any interest in his students. I've been the one to admit that I like him, and I've been the one to start all the kisses between us, some of which I should not have done, since others could have seen. I think it would be best if we were more careful, at least, if we continue to follow this path. I'm still not entirely sure if I truly like him enough to try a relationship, but I certainly like kissing him, which is a little scary in and of itself. More than anything...I think I want to aliviate some of the loneliness and bitterness I sense in him. I think he's been hurt badly in the past, and now he feels like he's alone. More than anything, the feelings he has draw me like a moth to the flame. I know we can get in trouble, but if I can stop the loneliness, I think it would be worth any consequence.

[yotanslemons]

Again it has been a long time since I have written here. A lot has happened. First the little cat girl, Talia, went missing and was rescued. Poor kitten, she's been badly hurt, but she doesn't trust strangers now and I do not know her well, so I don't want to make her uncomfortable with my presence. She has been getting more emotionally stable, so I suppose she at least does not need my help.

Professor Exodus went crazy and tried to kill someone, from what I heard. I'm still a bit confused about the issue, but he's been released finally. I'm glad. I missed him being in class and I missed talking to him. I didn't realize how much of a friend he had become.

I'm afraid I havn't seen Iris lately, but I'm sure Horatio is helping her as best he can, and he is very good at calming her. I hope that when we next meet, she'll be happier than last I saw her.

That's all I have to report for now. I will write again later.